I am gonna lose her or not? what will be her reaction? how is it possible a beautiful girl gonna love me? how a student from St. Micheal gonna love a boy who don't know anything? so many questions in my mind. Can't sleep, can not eat! What to do?
Can't sleep, can not eat! What to do? There was so many questions going around and trust me at that time can't my heart beat and my emotion. But, I was determined to talk to her at any cost, because she wasn't believing I am actually in love with her. I was so excited, because she wanted to hear for me. Everything was so clear. She is waiting for me, she wants to hear those words from me. I slept, yes I slept that night and wake up early morning., because I was waiting for the day when I am going to personally talk to her about my love, may be our love. Excited, some meditation, some prayer in the morning.
Eagerly waiting for the evening class. Can't wait anymore to she her again. Man, there was so much excitement. finally time came and I was the first in the class and sat a lil far. 2 benches far from her sit. Usually I was there just behind of her. Shivering, thinking too much and don’t know what to do or what not to! So, it was better to sit a bit far from her. She came, and entered in the room. Her face, damn please stop the world right now and let me see her again and again. Please lord, please stop for a while. Let me look into her eyes. I don't have that guys to look into her eyes directly. She was smiling, a face I never forget. There was so much in her eyes. what to say? What not to? What to do ? And what not to?
Can't sleep, can not eat! What to do? There was so many questions going around and trust me at that time can't my heart beat and my emotion. But, I was determined to talk to her at any cost, because she wasn't believing I am actually in love with her. I was so excited, because she wanted to hear for me. Everything was so clear. She is waiting for me, she wants to hear those words from me. I slept, yes I slept that night and wake up early morning., because I was waiting for the day when I am going to personally talk to her about my love, may be our love. Excited, some meditation, some prayer in the morning.
Eagerly waiting for the evening class. Can't wait anymore to she her again. Man, there was so much excitement. finally time came and I was the first in the class and sat a lil far. 2 benches far from her sit. Usually I was there just behind of her. Shivering, thinking too much and don’t know what to do or what not to! So, it was better to sit a bit far from her. She came, and entered in the room. Her face, damn please stop the world right now and let me see her again and again. Please lord, please stop for a while. Let me look into her eyes. I don't have that guys to look into her eyes directly. She was smiling, a face I never forget. There was so much in her eyes. what to say? What not to? What to do ? And what not to?
And she take her seat. She look behind and turned back again. In my mind, everything is gone! One question, she is angry or she wants to say something? Why she gave me that look? It is no or yes? She smiled and a serious look! Why ?
Maths teacher came, the class started. Can't concentrate why it happening? Is it a true love ? Seriously I am in love or its just a affection.
Trying to control my mind but failed each time. Can't really help it, she was there! She again turned back and asked why there ? Come here ? I said no it's okay! Let it be here. Then she concentrated on her study. I don't know about that but what I saw, what I thought it and what I am writing! It's because she is so good at her studies. She rarely go off track. Man, if it is yes then I have to study otherwise she gonna feel bad about it, any girl/boy wants her partner to be perfect in her sense, in her eyes and I am at least going to be perfect in her eyes! Going to give her all happiness what she has thought of in her dreams-- I am not going to make her cry! Want to roam with her! Want to grow up with her, Just want her to be with me and in her hard times too want to hold her hand and I will say, don't worry I am with you! We will face this situation together! There is so much, to tell her, she is so near but yet so far! Don't want to wait anymore. I want to know what she is thinking about me! We are friends and she really cares what I feel, how I am acting, I am good or not! Damn, never thought of such dream girl in my life! Class continues..... meanwhile thoughts isn't ending too! Who wants to concentrate on some subject when angel is in-front of you! Started thinking again, the dress she wore... was like angel just came from heaven to meet me !!!!! Can't concentrate on my studies~ The maths class was like - its bean a decade and class isn't getting over! What to do? But, I have to wait for another hour, I have to wait until class gets over!
Finally, it was time! Class was about to get over. I just wanted Dr Jha sir to go, no more lessons.
and finally, its over! Heart is ready to come out~ goosebumps, cant talk, started stammering, so many things at once.. wanted class to continue! I cant control my happiness, happiness to talk to her! Like dream will come true any moment. I am ready to die after!
To be continued.........
Finally, it was time! Class was about to get over. I just wanted Dr Jha sir to go, no more lessons.
and finally, its over! Heart is ready to come out~ goosebumps, cant talk, started stammering, so many things at once.. wanted class to continue! I cant control my happiness, happiness to talk to her! Like dream will come true any moment. I am ready to die after!
To be continued.........
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